One thing I an defiantly excited about is how healthy, thick, and curly my hair will be! My hair is already thick, I just need the healthy and curly part! For a while, I’ve been experimenting with curls and I love the way they look. The only thing I don’t like is having to constantly put heat on it or use those bendable curler thingies to get curls because it breaks my hair. I like the way you can braid or twist your hair. The way I’ve seen it done, it looks well conditioned and healthy.

I’m also excited about length and style. I learned you can actually do more with your natural hair than permed hair, and the endless styles are amazing, and they stay in place, which is frustrating to do with relaxed hair. I always really want to dye it red, oh mama, that will look so awesome, I’d love to try the hair henna!  I also think length gives the hair more beauty and wildness, and I want the largest mane I can get; it will be perfect!

One of my concerns is if I can actually manage it. I know it takes time and work to keep my natural hair strong and healthy, and with my schedule, I’m wondering how I can do it, but I guess it’s just gonna have to take better planning on my part.

I guess that’s it, I’m not nervous about cutting it, I want to try short hair at one point in my life. 

I am soooo ready, I can’t wait, been buzzing around about it all day. SO excited to go to my stylist Saturday, maybe some new pics? I guess we’ll see till then.

“How many ladies in the house?
How many ladies in the house without a spouse?
Something in your blouse got me feelin’ so aroused’st…
What you about?”
[I Wonder]

“And I’m back on my grind.
a psychic read my life line
told me in my lifetime,
my name would help light up the Chicago sky line”
[I Wonder]

“Do you even remember what the issue is?
You just trying to find where the tissue is.
You can still be who you wish you is
it ain’t happened yet
and that’s what intuition is.”
[Kanye West - I Wonder]

“I hear people compare themselves to Big a lot’
you know, B.I.G. and Pac, you know to get it hot.
I guess after I live I wanna be compared to big.
Anyone, Big Pun, Big L or NOTORIOUS”
[Kanye West - The Glory]

I am both nervous and excited. The reason why I want to go natural is because my hair is in a really bad condition. Every time I get a relaxer, my hair breaks and falls out constantly and it is always ichy, and I’m tired of having to go through hoops to manage my hair, with my schedule, it just takes up time.

I remember my aunt saying how my hair was fine before my mom decided to have it permed. SO this time, I want a say in how my hair is done, and I say natural. I don’t want to continue to damage my hair with chemicals, and I think my hair will be stronger and better off, and besides, I always wanted a twist or loc hairstyles, and I think I’ll look freggin’ awesome with an afro!

And if you’re wondering if I’m going to do the big chop, it’s no. If you hadn’t noticed already, my head is unusually huge; I never liked my hair short, maybe when it grows to my ears…

Ahh! I’m excited!!! I’m already doing my research! I just have to tell my mom first :o

I get sick of just about everyone,
and I hide in my Baby’s Arms.
Hide in my Baby’s Arms,
cause except for her, you know, as I’ve implied 

[Kurt Vile - Baby’s Arms]

I got so happy today, I finally cashed the coins I’ve been saving since some time last year, and I had over 90 bucks, plus the 15 dollars I already had, which is 105. I was proud or myself for not spending my savings all at the same time. I took 40 of it and put it on iTunes gift cards, and the rest is for concerts and instruments. Maybe I should save up for a keyboard or a syth, I really miss the keys..

FINALLY! Finally, finally, finally! Someone understands why being alone is so awesome!!

Before I get into why I am so excited, I want to talk about a phase that gets used on my every single day; “You are so anti-social”. I hate that so much, it’s like what’s it to you. And then, the people who know and don’t know you think you have a problem. The people who don’t know you think you are rude and give you the stank face, and people who you know want to find fun activities for you to do and get you to go out which is so annoying, but I am grateful to have people who care :|.

So, finally, haha, the reason why I am so happy is because I watched a YouTube video by a girl named Sabrina and she first defined being anti-social, and she said that anit-socialism(I guess) is actually a disorder, and then I was all “holy macaroni, I have a disorder D:”, but then she said that most killers have it; the disorder causes the people who have it to hurt other people, and then I sighed some relief because I’d never in my life hurt anyone. Then she explained a new term I  never heard of; the definition of being introverted, which means shy and reserved and that’s me too! Chyeah!!!

I really like being alone. The reason why is because humans really suck. Not that I hate humans, but to be around people is a drag sometimes. Maybe it is because I’ve been in the same city for ten years know, but everyone seams the same to me. Everyone wears the same clothes, listens to the same music, has the same views socially and politically. No one wants to be different anymore. No one wants to think bigger than themselves. It seems that we will never have people like Steve Jobs, Albert Einsteins, or John Lennons, Gandhis, and MLKs. It’s really depressing to me, that with all this technology that exposes us to achieve more, to different cultures, and ideas, and yet people do nothing with it. Another reason is that I have no one who thinks like me, not even my best friends, and I used to try and explain my concepts about the universe to people, but I’m tired of explaining. I not going to since I don’t plan on changing anytime soon!  People can either come along and get it, or if they they don’t, just accept it, or grow with me. I’d rather be alone with my own thoughts, ideas, and dreams and expand those ideas than involve myself with everyday people. I have the dreamer’s disease :) I guess,and proud of that too!

Hopefully when I get into college, I will meat more people who imagine, and turn those ideas into reality..

So! From now on, when people tell me I am anti-social, I will tell them I am an introvert, and to get their terminology right!